Have YOU ever hated someone? Well I don't think i have ever truely hated someone till today! I hate what was supposed to be one of my best friends! She did something to hurt alot of people... and she will soon lean that! There has been alot of DRAMA going on here lately ( in the band world) and now this is just the icing on the cake! It's bad enough when you lead someone on for a long time acting like you like them, then go make out with another guy, then come to school the next week and be dating another guy! Thats such a bad thing and you can never understand what you did wrong!? One of my best friends which whom I LOVE with all my heart.. is trying to find ways to die with out killing himself cause of you! How can you do something like that to some on? At this point he is doing any thing to do his body harm.. I spent 3 months last year to get him to stop smoking.. and now almost one year later hes gona start doing it again! Thats crazy! You could have at least had the decency to tell him that you were going back out with that guy (which also happens to be one of my really good friends)! I'm just trying to see things from your point of view right now.. you have done so many things in the past month that you really need to think about what you have done! You must be BLIND not to see that you are hurting people! what are you thinking?! U R STUPID! There does that make it any more clear for you?! Don't expect me to talk to you tomorrow at school! It may be a long time till i say another word to you! And Even though u may have broke one guys heart...yeah well thats ok because I know for a fact that he could have done way better than you and he will do better than you!Well i think I'm done now.. anyone who reads this I would really like it if we didn't talk about it at school.. don't tell any one about.. you most likely know who im talking about but if you don't don't ask...If I want to talk about it i will tell you or i will say something about it!

Love Always,

Melissa

I LOVE Nathan!!!

Congrats to Orey on the Drum Corps thing I think you should def. Do Rack!!!

hey guys! Yesterday we had a band competition and we compeated and I thought we did pretty good we could have done better! but still i screwed up my solo! ne wayz then we went and ate and chilled for 2 hours and watched a few other bands from the back and then they started doing like awards.... bradley central was the forst band not to have 3s, this was our score: drum majior, 1; drumline, 1; color guard 2; and band as a whole 2. 1 being the higest you can get! then they started doing division award our percussion got 1st place (im in pit) ahhhaaa and then our band placed 1st in out division!!! im so happy still!!! lol

Ne ways today is another day cheer pratice went good. today me and nathan have been going out for 2 months im os happy!

well its late i guess i will get offa here!

love always!

Melissa

I love Nathan!!!

4 days till my birthday!

hye guys! today was pretty good till i got to cheerleading! we were talking about how like we can only miss 3 pratices now and i said well what if we get a dr. excuse? and she was like i htink thats under my descression.  and then this chick who i REALLY dis-like said well i think you should still come i said yeah well my mom dosen't let me do ne thing when im sick i can't even watch tv and she was like well i still think you should come..then this ither girl was like i think you should have done something else that didn't include you being there all the time and being dedicated.... that set me OFF!!! i looked at her and said im more dedicated to band than she has ever been dedicated to ne thing in her life.. i have only missed 3 after school rehersals in the past 2 years how can she come off and say that im not dedicated!? gah i hate BITCHES! ne ways the girl that said i should still come i said well you can take that up with my mom and see what she has to say about that?! i tiold mom and she said, "that little girl dosen't wanna take it up with me cause i will tell her how it is and what i think about it"! yes i love my mom lol! ne wayz im about ready to quit!

ne wayz heres this quizy thing that every one has:

1.CHOOSE ONE OF YOUR SCARS, NOW HOW DID YOU GET IT?
the one above my eye! i had surgery to remove a potentially cancerous birth mark!!! lol weird!


2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Beeswax a yellowish/ beige color kinda pretty and leopards and care bears, good charlotte, and orlando bloom

3. WOULD YOU RATHER PLAY FOOTBALL OR WATCH IT?
Neither.


4. WHAT SPORT WOULD YOU SAY YOU ARE BEST AT?
Umm...cheerleading or band!!

5. WHAT WAS YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE?
haveing my heart broken.. i just had it like this week!!!

6. HOW DO YOU EXERCISE? 
Running, cheerleading

7. APPLES OR ORANGES?
Oranges


8. GRAPES OR WATERMELON?
Grapes!

9. WOLVES OR TIGERS?
tigers...grrrrr

10. DO YOU REMEMBER BIRTHDAYS?
yuppers

11. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? 
7:46 am 

12. WOULD YOU CALL YOURSELF A ROMANTIC PERSON?
idk?

13. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE?
To be honest, I'm not really sure.


14. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU STARTED FILLING THIS IN? 
umm listing to dashboard confessional 

15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GUM?
the kind that freshens your breath


16. FAVORITE CANDY (NON CHOCOLATE)?
Anything gummy and chewy and clearish! gummy worms i guess
17. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA ICE-CREAM?
I like both equally well.


18. DO YOU OWN ANYTHING LEATHER?
yes (my belt!)

19. HAVE YOU EVER HAD A SEXUAL DREAM ABOUT YOUR CRUSH?
like a fantasy?
20. DO YOU OWN AN INSTRUMENT?
Yup, I own many

21. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON SOMEONE (OPPOSITE SEX)?
stomach (abbs?)
22. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
umm melted chocolate


23. FAVORITE SOUND THAT YOU HEAR OFTEN?
Music

24. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW?
umm what im gonna wear after school tomorrow

25. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
sum

26. COULD YOU EVER SEE YOURSELF MOVING FROM WHERE YOU ARE?
Oh yeah!

27. HOW FAR WOULD YOU MOVE?  
not reallly sure

28. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DISNEY MOVIE OF ALL TIME?
marry poppins and bed knobs and brrom sticks


29. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR WHEN YOU WERE TEN?
orange
30. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
Dark Brown

31. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST CRUSH WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE?
colby
32. MOST EMBARRASSING CHILDHOOD MOMENT?
I can't remember at the moment...but I have quite a few of them.


33. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
umm soft good smelling and sumtimes long sum  times short no gel just natural
34. WHO OUT OF YOUR FRIENDS (SAME SEX) HAVE YOU KNOWN THE LONGEST?
kayla and tisha

35. NOW THE OPPOSITE?
idk
36. WHAT ARE THEIR LAST NAMES?
self ensley

37. SUNRISE OR SUNSET?
both r B-E-A-Utiful


38. WHERE AT?
over the water


39. (FOR THE LADIES, BE TRUTHFUL) WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT? idk thats a little far down the road i still have the rest of high school then college and med school!! lol 


40. (NOW THE GENTLEMEN, BE TRUTHFUL) WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?


41. WHAT ARE YOUR FIVE FAVORITE MOVIES?
1. Fantastic Four 

2. Dukes of Hazzard

3. Romeo and Juliet (lurhman version with leonardo decaprio) 

4. Bed Knobs and Broom Sticks 

5. Nightmare Before Christmas

42. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR YOUR HONEYMOON?
On the beach, or on the ocean


43. CAN YOU PLAY AN INSTRUMENT?
Oh yea! Many


44. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
Not yet

45. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)?
idk

46. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE SINGER?
Chris Cabbrera (singer for dashboard confessional) or Jole And Benji Madden (good Charlotte)
47. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ?
Tradgic ones and Magical like harry potter

48. DO YOU LIKE POETRY:
sometimes

49. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE?
over ice from caribou  coffee or starbucks

50. WHAT's YOUR FAVORITE PHRASE TO USE?
Oh my Goodness!!! and nuu uhh

51.DRAGONS OR DINOSAURS
dinos baby!! roar!!!

52. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
Noo I hate my heart getting broken

53. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
just tell emm no big fireworks or ne thing fancy

54. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
28

55. BLONDES, REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES?
brunettes


56. WOULD YOU PREFER TO GO ICE SKATING OR ROLLER SKATING?
rollerskating
57. WHOSE NUMBER DO YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?
My mom's cell. or kayla p


58. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
mark.. naww j/k ummm people who r really smart and lie alot and try to act stupid to fit in and be funny!

ne wayz im gonna go so i will talk to you guys later!

Love Always!

Melissa

I love Nathan!